You are loved

You are loved. The words that every one of us needs to hear. When we do someone a kind deed or help someone in need we are saying you are loved. When we really listen to someone or give him or her our unconditional support we are saying you are loved. I have been thinking …

Bravery

Tonight my two girls aged fourteen and eleven, dressed in their school uniforms with ribbons in their hair, went to their first Father/Daughters dinner without their father. My fourteen year old went with her father when she was in year five and now that my youngest is in year five she wanted to enjoy the …

Two personas

Coming to terms with a chronic illness is sometimes a little tricky. I change between the 'old' me who competed in a triathlon and the MS self who sometimes experiences difficulties doing everything the 'old' self did with my eyes closed. Sometimes I just can not function at the level I would like.  Multiple Sclerosis …

That’s what friends are for

I am the first to admit that I was not great at doing the whole female friendship thing. My best friend was my husband and so I did not take the time to nurture and build friendships. This week I have been reflecting on why the Bollywood Ball I attended was so different this year. …

I hope you dance

Tonight I went to a ball. The year my husband passed away I was so determined to go to everything and prove to everyone and myself that I can survive, that I attended this same ball. I vowed I would never go again. Everyone says the men chat and the woman dance and it is …

The Gift of Marriage

Today would be our 18th Wedding Anniversary. My late husband John and I celebrated 17 years together with 15 years of marriage and now I continue to remember our wonderful relationship. Every single anniversary we celebrated with much love and excitement. We were never too busy, we never left it to another time and I …

The Memory Keeper

Tomorrow is my youngest daughters birthday. She will be eleven. Since my husband passed away I have found the children’s birthdays quite challenging. The night before their birthday my late husband and I would lie in bed and talk about the details of that child’s birth, how we were feeling and the entire hospital experience. …

The magic number

At the gym today I was stretching before yoga next to a large set of scales and was amazed at the heavy traffic of people on and off the scales. I glanced at their faces as the magic number appeared on the screen. Not long ago every morning I would weigh myself and even record …

Recovering Perfectionist

Confessions of a recovering perfectionist I tend to judge myself when I don't fit into what I perceive to be the perfect person. If I eat something I shouldn't eat, I judge myself. If I say something I shouldn't say, I judge myself. If I act in a way that isn't perfect and polished, I judge myself. Remember my post about ‘My Food …

Secret Widows Business

Last weekend a very good friend came over for lunch. Her gorgeous husband passed away and I vividly remember being in the city with my husband and we sadly selected a sympathy card to send her.  Ironically by the time the ‘thank you card’ arrived from her, my husband had passed away as well. We …