Australia Day

Well, here we are again - Australia Day, which for me means five years since I lay down, one last night next to my husband, before he gracefully took his last breath. Grief continues to be a great teacher. I have learnt perspective, patience, tolerance, acceptance and gratitude for the present moment and so much …

Australia Day – A day to reflect

Here we are again, celebrating Australia Day. Which also means it has been four years today since my husband died.  This big question I have been asking myself is ‘How am I going?’ I have learnt how to make nourishing and rejuvenating choices for my body, mind and soul. I try to live a life …

Embracing Solitude

You may have noticed that I have not written anything for some time. There are numerous reasons for this – firstly I have been on holidays and try to go offline as much as possible and secondly I don’t like writing unless I have something worthwhile to say. After a great deal of reflective journal …

Abundance

I live an abundant life but sometimes it is so tricky to remember this. There are moments that I feel as though my life is lacking. In turn, I begin searching externally for something that can only be obtained from within. This week I had a couple of wake-up calls. I went to a funeral, …

The 12 things you can do for someone who has experienced a tragedy

When someone experiences a tragedy we automatically ask -  "What can I do?" "How can I help?" "What should I say?" Seeing I have been on the other side of this equation; as a wife of someone with cancer, a widow and also myself being diagnosed with an autoimmune disease I thought it was time …

Using the ‘W’ word

 On Saturday night a fellow widow and wonderful friend and I attended our first ever singles cocktail party. I spent the day feeling nervous and for the first time a little angry. When I married my best friend I thought it was forever. The night was interesting and an eye opener to say the least. For every …

Secret Widows Business

Last weekend a very good friend came over for lunch. Her gorgeous husband passed away and I vividly remember being in the city with my husband and we sadly selected a sympathy card to send her.  Ironically by the time the ‘thank you card’ arrived from her, my husband had passed away as well. We …

My favourite place

Without doubt my favourite place is the beach. Watching the water glisten in the sun and feeling the sand between my toes is just so lovely. Even in the winter months the beach is an incredible place to escape to and enjoy. We are lucky enough to own a unit at the beach and it has been our beautiful …

Synchronicity

It was fear that made me keep his toothbrush next to mine and fear that kept his clothes hanging in the wardrobe and fear that made selling his car so difficult. I was fearful that if I let go of these things I would let go of him. It was a sad and an overwhelming …

Becoming a Widow

Two years and four months ago I became a widow at age 37. While reflecting on my journal entries it has been quite a journey. Some include "I feel totally lost", "The pain is excruciating",  "All our dreams for the future are gone", "I can't believe I won't see you again" and "I am confused …